Air

Is everything as small as we think it is? Is it even possible to think of the big picture, or have we been selling ourselves short all along? The brain has an amazing way of coming up with what seem like an infinite number of questions yet it falls so short in the answer category. So many ways, so many reasons.

Sometimes I wonder, 2 seconds before you die, do you figure out what the meaning of life is? The major human conquest is to figure out the answer to that lone question. At times, it's silly to say that I feel like I've found the answer to that question. Yet, every time I find a good answer, I find a better answer. Honestly, the way to figure out the meaning of life is to live a life. I don't think it can be put into words and I believe it takes a lifetime to figure it out. At 23, that would probably be my answer. How much can I bet myself that the answer will probably change when I'm 35?

I think we look for a more material answer though. Such as - God is the reason why we are here. Or science and its splendid world of biology put us here. All in all, quite possible. I wouldn't deny any of those answers. It is what it is, so on and so on.

I don't try and bend myself over it. There are too many feelings to feel and the world is a constant changing place. Today, I got a weird case of (somewhat) deja vu. I wish I can remember what it was specifically, but I can't put my finger on it. It was comforting because it was a thought I had not felt since I was a young kid. Going there felt amazing and new - and now it's gone. One of these nights I'll find it again. Here's to hoping it doesn't take another 23 years.