I thought I had saved a draft from about a week and a half ago on here, but I guess it got deleted. Not like I was not going to do that to begin with.
I've exhausted myself beyond belief. I figured that if I got past the first 8 weeks of the semester that everything afterward would be fairly easy. Never been more wrong in my life than now.
The sun peered through the incoming clouds for a couple of minutes this morning. It's really dark outside right now. It's making me tired, but I'm afraid I'll fall asleep and not wake up in time for work.
Facebook adverts are asking me if I like Editors and if I like Asian girls? Whatever should I do?
I think I'm getting tired. Hope to get back here soon.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Monday, October 6, 2008
Be Quiet
One of these days...
-I won't be so sad.
-I won't be so busy.
-I'll write something on this blog.
-I will be done with this semester.
-UPS will deliver my package when I'm actually around.
-Things will make sense.
-I'll have a day off.
-I'll find out that I've been lying to myself.
-I will get sick.
-Someone will find me hiding in society and then they'll want to know me for the rest of their life.
-I'll find out that wishing gets me no where.
-I won't be so sad.
-I won't be so busy.
-I'll write something on this blog.
-I will be done with this semester.
-UPS will deliver my package when I'm actually around.
-Things will make sense.
-I'll have a day off.
-I'll find out that I've been lying to myself.
-I will get sick.
-Someone will find me hiding in society and then they'll want to know me for the rest of their life.
-I'll find out that wishing gets me no where.
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
The Heart You Left In My Old Bed
So tired of just being alone. Tired of the "e" button sticking on my laptop too. I understand that if I want things to go the way they've been going that I'm going to have to leave it all like it is now. I don't really have time for anyone else. I shouldn't make time for anyone else.
I could of saved some money and bought some drinks for me and others, but I decided to get 2 shirts instead. Probably better off that I did that. There were a couple of girls I would of wanted to talk to, but I just didn't. That always seems to be my answer. But of course, 90% of the girls were dressed like sluts. The young man in me didn't care. The older man was turned off and frustrated by it. I need to learn to take it easy on some people.
As I stood waiting in between sets, a girl and her friend walked over close to my vicinity. I was worried that if I went over to talk to her I would just end up attracting the friend. Sounds dumb? Trust me, its happened before. Like I want that to happen again. And I know about a woman and her friend and the little games they'll play with men when one comes over. It's simple, I was outnumbered. What can we do about it now anyway?
It's starting to get cold outside.
I could of saved some money and bought some drinks for me and others, but I decided to get 2 shirts instead. Probably better off that I did that. There were a couple of girls I would of wanted to talk to, but I just didn't. That always seems to be my answer. But of course, 90% of the girls were dressed like sluts. The young man in me didn't care. The older man was turned off and frustrated by it. I need to learn to take it easy on some people.
As I stood waiting in between sets, a girl and her friend walked over close to my vicinity. I was worried that if I went over to talk to her I would just end up attracting the friend. Sounds dumb? Trust me, its happened before. Like I want that to happen again. And I know about a woman and her friend and the little games they'll play with men when one comes over. It's simple, I was outnumbered. What can we do about it now anyway?
It's starting to get cold outside.
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